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FOR ALL OF YOU WHO ARE STILL HARBORING HURTS FROM THE PAST YOU MUST REALIZE THAT THERE IS SOMETHING THAT YOU ARE GREATLY MISSING….

THE BLESSINGS OF THE DAY

THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS in our life that should not have happened but somehow did: rejections from parents, lack of support (financial, moral, spiritual) prejudice, abuses, and all the hurts that have haunted us in our sleep.

my hurts

i lived my llife full of these emotions, hurts, sufferings and pains. at one point in my life, i felt like i am the most unluky person in the world because of those things that i have experienced. they said that experiences like that would teach us to grow and would make us strong. but i wonder????

things that make us strong….

hurts and pains would give us immunity and tolerance to future hurts and pains, as if we are putting muscles and callousesin our spirit so that people would not percieve us as weaklings. immediately after the storm in our lives we would be picking up all the rubbles and would be starting over again from the beginning. a new house stands but the memory of the old house still remains.

a new house??

a new house, not the same one before the storm. and after each and every storm another new house in the same foundation. piling it up on top of the other until you realize that you are just rebuilding the same house. it is not new.

hidden hurts…..

the pain, the callouses, the muscles, the learning from mistakes experiences, are not new house, they are just illusions that we have built to help us deny that there is one part in us that needs help, that needs assistance, that needs to be acknowleged, destroyed, healed, and loved.

what is your weakness?

when i was interviewed for the QA position i gave all the positive things that i have achieved and gained and learned. im all positive and all "bida". so i answered all the questions that the HR asked me with positivism. until in one part of the interview she asked me for my weakness. i was perplexed and it took me 1 minute to answer that question. because i came prepared with all my battle armour to conquer and to prove to myself that i can land on that QA position easily. but upon evaluation, i have just worn that heavy armor just to protect my weaknesses. i failed… there i was all muscled up, calloused and blistred and stuff, with a new armour, with a new house, an improved self but with a hidden weakness, a hidden pain, a hidden hurt which is also a big part of me.

there is no way that ill be forgetting the hurts that i have experienced in the past, those were the reasons why i became what i am today…. ???? …. a never ending victim.

o come Lord Jesus, o Come prince of peace

Psalm 51 ASV

1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: According to the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, And cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions; And my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, And done that which is evil in thy sight; That thou mayest be justified when thou speakest, And be clear when thou judgest. 5 Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity; And in sin did my mother conceive me. 6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts; And in the hidden part thou wilt make me to know wisdom. 7 Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8 Make me to hear joy and gladness, That the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. 9 Hide thy face from my sins, And blot out all mine iniquities. 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; And renew a right spirit within me. 11 Cast me not away from thy presence; And take not thy holy Spirit from me. 12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; And uphold me with a willing spirit. 13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; And sinners shall be converted unto thee. 14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation; ‘And’ my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. 15 O Lord, open thou my lips; And my mouth shall show forth thy praise. 16 For thou delightest not in sacrifice; else would I give it: Thou hast no pleasure in burnt-offering. 17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: A broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. 18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: Build thou the walls of Jerusalem. 19 Then will thou delight in the sacrifices of righteousness, In burnt-offering and in whole burnt-offering: Then will they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

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